Whenever I think of weightloss, the first word that comes to mind is- failure. So far I've stuck to it one day, ate something I shouldn't have the following and then stuck to it the next.. then the cycle continues.. I don't feel any thinner, I feel tired.. annoyed with myself. I NEED to do this and really want to, yet can't. I'm not sure why I keep slipping up.. I just can't seem to resist anything! My head was in such a good place last week, now I just feel like 'oh well, I'm not a whale.. I've only got a few stone to lose so there's no rush'..
Actually there is. I need to be slim by July. I can't go on holiday feeling like the 'chubby friend'.. I'm not one of those people who can carry chub well.. Some girls slap on a bit of fake tan and look amazing despite a few wobbly bits, but me .. NO. I look horrible, any weight I put on really shows.. I'm wobbly, not toned and pale.. It's not a good look. I cannot possibly go on holiday in this state. Plus I wanted to be a stone lighter by the time I go on a short break with my boyfriend in April.. That isn't going to happen now.. It's just sabotage after sabotage.. :/ I need to be looked away for a year with only shakes and no food.. Seriously. Wherever's there is food I seem to eat.. I'm rarely even hungry but food is such a big part of my life that I feel so hard done by without it. How sad is that. I admitt it though, I'm under no pretense that food completely dominates my life. I need to break the cycle..
I need to lose this weight..
The only thing I can do is be honest with my consultant and keep taking her advice.
I will get there, by July.. no matter what it takes.
x
Sunday, 13 March 2011
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
Day Seven.. One week complete :)
One week done.. :)
3 1/2 lbs down.. I'm happy with that considering I drank this weekend and ate pizza but next week I want the same! I need to lose 4lbs and I get the bag I want from accessorize! :D
All ready for the next week.
I'm going to do this :D
3 1/2 lbs down.. I'm happy with that considering I drank this weekend and ate pizza but next week I want the same! I need to lose 4lbs and I get the bag I want from accessorize! :D
All ready for the next week.
I'm going to do this :D
Saturday, 5 March 2011
05/03/11- Oops.
Last night I was naughty.. ordered pizza :S Had two slices.. felt full and have now woken up feeling sick and horrible.. Eurgh :/ Annoyed with myself.. I just couldn't ignore my cravings for carbs though :(
Anyways.. onwards, and upwards! Today is a new day :)
Anyways.. onwards, and upwards! Today is a new day :)
Friday, 4 March 2011
04/03/11- Day Two COMPLETE.
So far so good. Really realised today how key keeping busy is! Was in school until gone 7pm and wasn't really thnking of food at all!! So I just need to keep moving and keep my mind elsewhere.. Pizza leaflets also stop coming through my door :P
Tired and achey today..as it my flatmate.. in bed all cosey :) I'm feeling really positive about this.. I can do it this time! I can be a size 10.. I can be slim, happy and I can look good :D
Looking forward to the weighin.. 5 more days! I can also have bars then too, yayyy :)
x
Tired and achey today..as it my flatmate.. in bed all cosey :) I'm feeling really positive about this.. I can do it this time! I can be a size 10.. I can be slim, happy and I can look good :D
Looking forward to the weighin.. 5 more days! I can also have bars then too, yayyy :)
x
Thursday, 3 March 2011
03/03/11- Day One..
Day one- tick :D
3x chocolate shakes.. they are yum! I drink them in about 2 seconds though.. need to learn the art of savouring.. :P
Not so good on the water front.. Still need to drink my 2 litres :/
Also decided I'm going to do half hour light exercise later on.. if I get my school work done first..
Feels good to have support from flatmate.. CC and boyfriend :)
I know I can do this.. just got to focus :)
3x chocolate shakes.. they are yum! I drink them in about 2 seconds though.. need to learn the art of savouring.. :P
Not so good on the water front.. Still need to drink my 2 litres :/
Also decided I'm going to do half hour light exercise later on.. if I get my school work done first..
Feels good to have support from flatmate.. CC and boyfriend :)
I know I can do this.. just got to focus :)
Wednesday, 2 March 2011
02/03/11- "Life doesn't have to be this way.."
Feeling so motivated.. honestly, more than ever..
Met with my consellor, she is such an inspirational person.. has so much time for everyone.. I've got my shakes, I CAN do this..
Me and Bex are going shopping Saturday for a lovely new dress.. this will be my incentive.. I'm going to get a size 10 and I wnt to be in it by the end of July! I
I'm looking forward to hanging it up.. It'll motivate me :)
My CC also showed me pictures of a girl around my size now and how within a few months she was size 8/10 and looked so good! It really helped me see I can transform myself.. It actually is possible. Before I've just looked at myself at thought 'urgh, you'll look disgusting anyway.. you may as well just stay food and eat lots of yummy food'.. But really, life does not have to be this way :D
Here it goes.. I'm aiming for a 5lb loss in my first week :D
Fingers crossed..
x
Met with my consellor, she is such an inspirational person.. has so much time for everyone.. I've got my shakes, I CAN do this..
Me and Bex are going shopping Saturday for a lovely new dress.. this will be my incentive.. I'm going to get a size 10 and I wnt to be in it by the end of July! I
I'm looking forward to hanging it up.. It'll motivate me :)
My CC also showed me pictures of a girl around my size now and how within a few months she was size 8/10 and looked so good! It really helped me see I can transform myself.. It actually is possible. Before I've just looked at myself at thought 'urgh, you'll look disgusting anyway.. you may as well just stay food and eat lots of yummy food'.. But really, life does not have to be this way :D
Here it goes.. I'm aiming for a 5lb loss in my first week :D
Fingers crossed..
x
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